Frustrations.

I'm 26 and I still behave like a kid. I cannot lie to myself and say that I've grown in the last 10 years. My heart and my desires are still essentially the same as that of a 16-year-old me.

What have I done today that isn't selfish? What kind of expectations do I still harbour of people and society? What kind of view do I have of my friendships and relationships? All distorted! Supposedly, I've been dying to myself everyday, but it seems that I have not gotten far. What's the point of all I've went through?

Arrgh!

The Month of May and the M-Audio Ozonic

Ah, been so busy with Sonic Festival. So I'm in the office quite a bit. Sonic Fest will be a 3-day conference this year from the 21st to 23rd of June. Visit www.sonicfest.net for more details. I'll be performing a live electronic set there.

I went for the Big Walk some weeks ago with the rest of SE. Quite fun. Sonic Edge went in force to use it as an opportunity to prayer walk through the city area.

My sister is also back from the USA and her cats live in the quarantine centre. She visits them everyday. So one day, I tagged along and it seems they take to me okay. Their names: Buddy and Lula.

I finally got my M-Audio Ozonic audio interface/MIDI controller keyboard. I'm having an awesome time with it. There is still some confusion on how I can integrate it with my Roland EG-101 arranger keyboard, of which warm pads I really, really like.

My mum got her car. It's a Toyota RAV4. It's really nice to ride in it because it's so big and spacious and smooth going. Quite the gun.

Nice and not nice.

Test photos from my parents' Panasonic digital camera (see previous post). I was quite excited about it because the actual resolution is quite high and plus the image reproduction is quite kena. Impressive for a consumer-based point-and-shoot.

Project Green Grass (the gig) happened last Saturday. I haven't properly seen Vertical Rush play since Baybeats '05 (I'm not kidding). It's nice to see Dex back in town. And for good too. Anyway, that's that.

I went to Johor Bahru on Monday. Can you believe it? I bought nothing for myself. Shouldn't have changed all that money into ringgit. But I had fun checking out different shopping places in JB.

I'm going to KL in June for the COOS church camp. Apparently, the place we're going is a 6-star hotel called Palace of the Golden Horses. Supposed to be quite happening one. I just have enough money to go for it.

8.4 Megapixels?!

My parents went out to get the swankiest Panasonic Lumix camera in the current market. I think it's quite swanky. And it's got a 8.4 megapixel CCD, which means it's capable of quite a high resolution. (I tried to convince my parents to get a digital-SLR, but, well, it was a long shot.)

I met a friend from long ago (7 years?) this evening. We both laughed at my embarassing past, but it's all good. We had a good time hanging out.

I bumped into another friend who lost his dad a couple of months ago. I'm encouraged that he is taking this very positively and taking charge of his household.

New blog address.

Yup, and so I've moved here. That's because I've decided to use genshi-monogatari.com for my promo site for my music production, gigs and DJing. Feel free to visit www.genshi-monogatari.com. For those of you who do not know, I'm currently doing some small-time music production in the area of electronica. I am also exploring the idea of doing electronic music live, but that will have to come after I've gathered enough material. You here listen to a sample of a track I made here.

I'm also looking for DJing gigs in pubs/clubs. To understand the kind of music I DJ, you can download my mix here. No private house parties, please.