"Classic."

In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sanctus. Amen.


Suelynn carrying Glenn somewhere along Jalan Petaling, KL,
in a photo I took during the last Sonic Edge Tour.

The haze craze is back and it's been a while since I last smelled this kind of smoke in the air. It's getting to everyone, except me. God is covering me so that I wouldn't fall sick easily. See? He does take care of people. My mum's complaining about her sore eyes though, because she gets them every time the haze thickens. Well, Lord, please grant my mum the same care you have bestowed on me. She is also Christian and also loves you just as much as I do. I estimate visibility to be about 5 to 7 kilometers today. It seems really bad. 6.30pm looks as dark as 7.30pm. Kind of moody weather nowadays.

I don't like haze. Bad for photography. Looks like I won't have a chance to shoot anything any time soon. Bleah.

+ Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam +

Photo: The Midnight Bus

Photo: Old Parliament House

In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sanctus. Amen.

My favorite reporter, after 8 months of deliberation, is now on a London-bound Boeing 747. We'll miss you, lady, although you don't visit this blog often, and you probably won't have a chance to read this anyway. But all the best to your time there! We will always remember you in our prayers.


Itte rasshai!

+ Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam +

Kopenhagen from Adidas Originals
"I also want."

In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sanctus. Amen.

"Last night, a DJ saved my life..."
- words from some song by some artiste

"God is a DJ."
- Faithless

On suicide. Many of us have thought about it before. Life on earth is hard. No one said that it would be easy. I have attempted suicide before. But, luckily, DJ Jesu Christe saved me (ahem).

Death will always seem easier than life when we're in trouble. By living, we have no choice but to hold ourselves to certain standards, and sometimes, those standards are hard to meet. So, when things are really rough, like when you feel rejected by your friends or family, or feel burdened to them, or even feel guilty about your own past, you would say 'it's not worth the living' or 'I'm not worth the living'. I have said those words myself many times. It's an easy thing to do compared to what we have to face in life - humliation, rejection, hate, guilt, anger... Just slit that wrist, swallow those pills, jump from the twentieth floor, jump in front of a bus or truck, go OD on junk, get drunk and go for a swim, hang yourself... so easy... What an easy great escape suicide is.

The ways of the devil are always easy. Always.

Fear of facing life (I call this vitaphobia) is a human thing and the devil will use fear to come between us and God. So what do we do? I share my fears with God and commit my problems to Him. I pray for rest within my heart and strength and courage against these fears. With this courage, I face my fears with resolve. If it means that I have to sacrifice something that I like in this world, I sacrifice it, because my love for God is supposed to be above all else. For we must bravely face what God has called us to do with all the faith we can muster. Fear nothing but the lost of your love for God.

"O my God, the Most High Jesus Christ,
O loving Saviour, God of Eternal Life,
Lord all-pitying, ever kind.
You take away the sins of the world.
Have mercy on us!
The way of this world is tempetuous and forsaken.
Oft times, I stray from you O Lord,
For my faith is build on all things earthly.
Forgive me, Jesus, for I have sinned greatly!
I am truly sorry for betraying Your Word again and again.
But now I have faith,
The faith that only You can give,
The only faith that saves.
Thank you Lord.
On that fateful day
When You died on the cross,
My sins are forgiven.
When You rose from the dead and
Sat by the right hand side of the Father,
You promised Your faithful eternal life.
I thank you for this alone, my God.
I was once blind but now I see.
Hallelujah!
With Your promise, Lord,
Grant me the courage and faith
To go through life in Your Name.
Hear my cry, Jesus,
And I shall not toil in vain!
And with Your strength,
I shall conquer my weaknesses.
I shall walk through the valley of death
And no evil shall I fear.
I love you, Sweet Jesus.
And I know you love me too.
In You I find rest,
In Your Sacred Heart is my home.
I am Yours. Use me.
With my tongue, I proclaim Your Word.
With my hands, I heal the sick.
With my heart, I share Your Love.
Imbue in me Your Strength
So that I shall never lose hope.
Annoint me for the hardship
About to come.
In times of weakness, my Lord,
May I always turn to you and say,
'Let me never lose my faith!'
Amen."

+ Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam +

"I want."

In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sanctus. Amen.

Everyday, between 4:30 pm and 6:30 pm, the sun shines directly into my face if I sit at my desk. I'm going blind... So, I've decided that from now on, I'll draw the curtains.

Today, my mum and I had lunch in the city, and what else can we talk about but my studies next year?! Anyway, she said that maybe it's better to buy an apartment in Melbourne rather than rent (What are your views on this?). Now even though we both go down to Melbourne often, we are not actually familiar with living there. But I'm really looking forward to school next year. If only the next four months would past quickly.

That's So WONG is now online. If you want to contribute as a regular blogger for That's So WONG, please send me an e-mail.

Happy belated Birthday, Maria!

+ Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam +

Will be in KL (again!) till Saturday or Sunday.
Hope you guys have fun this Saturday at NCRC.

- CANCELLED!!! -

One thing I want to leave behind before going to KL in the morning is this: Mercy and pardon on the hijackers of the planes that collided with the New York World Trade Center towers. While it is a hard thing to forgive murderers, it is not for us to judge anyone, even though we see no justification in the events of that fateful day of September 11th.

In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sanctus. Amen.

It's a been a good day. Another one. Praise God. Hallelujah. Joe and I went to the airport from town. It's the day that Aaron's leaving for England to study("... in the green, green fields of England!"- English hymn). Things were pretty alright. Aaron just couldn't wait to get over there. He's really looking forward to his studies. God be with our brother! Hey, Varient! We'll miss you many many... write to us often!

On my way back, I met this guy called Kelvin. He used to be in Kinemat but now he is working for Apple Computers. It's funny how we met on the train. A couple of months ago, I was DJing at this competition called DJ Quest, by Juice magazine. I was the only techno DJ there and he was one of the judges. After my set, he came up to me and said 'hi' and gave me some encouraging words. As I was saying, it's funny how we met on the train. We talked about techno and about the Singapore dance music scene. He said that if I was alright about it, we could work together for the next few months. We both agreed that we'd work something out and meet up next week. I haven't seen anyone more passionate about techno in Singapore than him. But it was a very good talk and I think something's coming up. I cannot help but to thank God for something like that. I want to offer Kelvin up to God in prayer tonight because he is now in a terrible financial state. He has a huge debt to cover but his pay is not going to help him very much. I wish I could help him with some cash but unfortunately, the only thing I can do is ask God to help him out in this time of need.

Anyway, it's the big September 11th. 9-11. Yeah. Osama's supposed to be at work again. Don't know if he's still alive. I would like to offer my prayers to those whose lost loved ones last year. I also pray for Osama himself. Although he is evil, he is only a tool of the devil and God can take that tool away and turn it for the good. If Osama is alive, I pray that God will change him. I have decided to set aside this day of September 11th to be a day of reminder for us to forgive instead of putting blame on terrorists for the acts of September 11th.


Birthdays:
Ode to Drey on her 14th birthday...

"Happy birthday to you,
You are like a black shoe,
Like Madonna with black feet.
But we all love still you."

+ Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam +

In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sanctus. Amen.

I think this is the time of the year a lot of people talk about romance and all that sort of thing. A lot of friends I know are going some period of renewal of relationships, falling in love with someone, thinking about beautiful moments in past relationships. I am affected by this too, you know. But for me, it isn't about thinking about someone, but rather, thinking about what kind of person I would like to meet.

I often have very romantic dreams about this particular girl whom I have not met in real life. She's suppose to be this person called 'Dream Lover(DL)'. She has long black hair that sometiems bundle up or tied like a ponytail. She's always in front of me. And I'm always chasing her. Occasionally, I'd catch up with her and we'd stare into each other eyes and laugh and have a real nice time together.

I always wake up in the middle dreams like these (my pshrink says that most people only remember the dreams that they wake up in the middle of, but that's another lecture altogether). Then I'd think to myself about how my previous relationships went and the mistakes I've made, especially with that last one (she disappeared out of thin air... don't ask). All of them were mistakes, really. Tiring, these relationship were. So after my last girlfriend in 2000, I went into a one year plus period of constant dating, but never to venture into any serious relationship.

What about now? No. Frankly, I like to think about romance. But to actually get into any relationship right now is something that doesn't appeal to me. I don't know why. I prefer to start working, get my life on the road, repairing or rebuilding friendships, and most importantly, trying to get rid of old habits.

I look at couples today and I have good feelings for them. In my mind, I always wish them well, if not the best. So when I see lovers fighting, my heart goes out to them. I really want them to make up with each other. You at least most of the couples I see today still fight. It's not so bad because quarreling is a form of communication. It is to be avoided of course. But you know hwat's worse? Cold silence. When your partner gives you that, it's a very scary thing. Just as bad is when both parties in a relationship are acting nice to each other when things are, in reality, going very bad. I would call that a silence too.

The following is my opinion. Please correct my immaturity. Just consider this as my two cents's worth, ok? I am no great lover.

We always say to our partners and I think we've also heard a fair bit from them ourselves that communication is very important in a relationship. That's true, you know. But on top of that, we should also offer our relationship to God as an honest relationship. The fellowship we share with our partners should always be dedicated to God. This is not necessarily consecration. Consecretion of a relationship to God, that is, to make it holy, takes the form of marriage. Marriage is the confirmation that God gives us of our love for our partners. In that sense, we didn't put ourselves and our partners together. Marriage is like God putting us with our partners. Marriage is always for God. It's like how God put Adam and Eve together. That's why marriage is very necessary when we settle down with our partners. Some people think that they can keep a relationship together without consecrating it to God. Do you know any couple who has successfully maintained that relationship? We are only humans and if we do not have God's blessing in a relationship (which comes with marriage), we have no power to hold the relationship together. I think it would be a very good practice for couples, married or not, to sit down together regularly and pray to God together. Pray out loud for each other and for the direction of the relationship. Like all things else, ask the Lord of wisdom in love so that He can guide you through wisdom in the undertaking of your relationship, to keep it sacred and blessed.

Anyway, enough of my ramblings. Tonight, I specially hold in my prayers those who are in romantic relationships today and will be in the future. I pray that you couples can turn to the Good Lord together, in fellowship, during times of struggle. The devil tempts us in all ways, but by the Lord's covering, we remain unharmed. Offer your relationships to Him if you really love each other. Strive for God's love in each other. And most importantly, thank God for each other.

Congratulations to Dion and Dorothy on their wedding day. May you guys have a really fruitful and happy time together. All the very best! Amen.

+ Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam +

"I want a DJ girlfriend..."
At least, then, I would have someone to really share my interests with. A girlfriend with whom I could talk about my music tastes with. We could experiement with electronic music. We could complement each other musically. A chemistry between two DJs, not just in music but in love too...

But it's all just fantasy, of course.

"Oh my God, the Most High, Jesus Christ,

You are the King of tremendous majesty!
Holy is your name!
By your Holy Cross, you have redeemed the world.
Blessed be your name!

Lamb of God,
You take away the sins of the world,
Grant me peace and salvation.
For I am so sorry for all the sins of my life.

Jesus, teacher of my faith,
Teach me to love and show compassion.
Teach me to share my life with my brethen.
Teach me to be more like you, Lord.

Guard me from the evil one,
By Your Awesome Name, I cast this foe away forever!
Protect me from sin and bring me not to the test.

Send me to do your bidding, Good Lord,
And I shall do it.
But without your wisdom,
I can do nothing.

I love you, my Lord,
With all my heart, my soul and my body.

I thank you for your love and forgiveness,
The most precious of gifts,
For they are complete and perfect.

Lord Jesus, I truly love you!
Nothing shall I fear but the lost of my love for you.

May all the ends of the earth cry out your Holy Name! Hallelujah! Praise the Lord Almighty. God of the Most High.

Amen."

In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sanctus. Amen.

The Fifth Day of the Ninth Month, the Year of our Lord Two Thousand and Two.

Tagline of the day:
"I'm sorry you're going to Surrey."
- Genshi's reference to where the Slice Machine is going for his university

KL was a good trip. Managed to explore the inner city some. Lots of interesting places. What strike me most is the pollution. It can't beat Mexico but it sure keeps the heat up. I like the heat though. I got some shots of really dodgy buildings, but I'm sure if they'll turn out well because I took them in the late afternoon when it was getting a bit dark. Let e go up to KL a few more times and I'll be able to bring people around the city myself. *hehehe* It can really be a beautiful city.


Okay, some important stuff:

Firstly, it's great to see that more and more people are turning up at the Wednesday group. Also, it's great to see how God is really working in a lot of us in terms of the problem in our lives and the friendships in all of us. All honour, praise and glory to His wonderful name!

Secondly, while God is working on our hang ups and everything bad in our lives, there are still some of us in trouble. Some of us still do not have the heart to really allow His Lordship into his/her life completely. Cool, sometimes we humans will think, "why does God let this happen to me?" or "something's wrong" and we feel all upset because things aren't certainly going to follow the plans we have set out to accomplish. Well, it's natural to think that way. We are humans and humans have emotions. And it is really hard to humble oneself in order to accept that we humans make mistakes, especially the embarassing ones. We are also so hung up or clouded with guilt that we forgot that God has forgiven us for the mistakes. Faith is an easier said than done. It's true. But try having faith first, even if a little. Then exercise it often, even though things are really bad. The more you exercise your faith, the better it becomes and the closer to God you will be. For example, when things get a little tough, just say out, "God, I love you, and I trust in you. So whatever happens, it happens because you want it to happen. Your will, not mine, be done! Amen." and after that, whatever happens. It's not about what you want. It's really about what God wants, you see. It's committing everything you do to God. It doesn't necessarily solve problems, but it helps you find some closure.

Thirdly. I have been forgiven by God. Hallelujah. Praise the name of the Most High, Jesus. On top of that, God has spoken to me recently (as I have mentioned before) that I should rebuild bad relationships. Today, one of the people I have been seeking forgiveness from has forgiven me. It feels great and I thank God for that. It really shows that God is encouraging me in my building of relationships. I hope that this can be also a big encouragement for my fellow brothers and sisters to forgive each other for whatever things that they are in debt to each other. Even though it is hard to forgive, the Big Guy up there has forgiven us for so much more than we can ever blame anyone. Can you imagine that? He can be taken as an example. We always say, "Forgive us of our sins, as we forgive those who have sinned against us." Isn't it a clear enough calling to forgive completely? Total forgiveness? I recognise that Christ has forgiven me. That is sufficient. But God will always want us to forgive each other too. I have in all my clear conscience forgiven any wrong that has been done to me, completely, as I am truly sorry for the wrong things I have caused others. I ask for forgiveness again.

Fourthly. I love you all, my brothers and sisters. I love you as God loves me. I am proud of your company. And it doesn't matter if anyone of you hates me or not. I love you just the same. I promised God that everyone I know, I must love with the love He gave me. I just want all of you guys to know that, from my family, Sonic Edge, old school friends, ex-girlfriends, people I used to detest... everyone! I want you to know that I love you all. And I thank God that at the very least, even if I am useless, I know the meaning of love.

I thank anyone of you who has given me encouragement and taught me strict lessons. I thank you all so much because it is the only way I can grow in my faith. Please continue to teach me and correct my wrong ways, which are many. I promise to God that I will put all the strength God has given me into being perfect. Perfection may seem like a distant thing and may even be an impossiblity. Whatever it is, I want to strive for this perfection for God, if He wills it.

And it is my wish that you all grow in this faith too, as I know some of you already are. Not a day passes that I do not praise God for the things that have been, are, and will be. Such is the glory of the Lord Jesus Christ, who lives and reigns forever and ever. Amen.

+ Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam +

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