In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sanctus. Amen.

"Last night, a DJ saved my life..."
- words from some song by some artiste

"God is a DJ."
- Faithless

On suicide. Many of us have thought about it before. Life on earth is hard. No one said that it would be easy. I have attempted suicide before. But, luckily, DJ Jesu Christe saved me (ahem).

Death will always seem easier than life when we're in trouble. By living, we have no choice but to hold ourselves to certain standards, and sometimes, those standards are hard to meet. So, when things are really rough, like when you feel rejected by your friends or family, or feel burdened to them, or even feel guilty about your own past, you would say 'it's not worth the living' or 'I'm not worth the living'. I have said those words myself many times. It's an easy thing to do compared to what we have to face in life - humliation, rejection, hate, guilt, anger... Just slit that wrist, swallow those pills, jump from the twentieth floor, jump in front of a bus or truck, go OD on junk, get drunk and go for a swim, hang yourself... so easy... What an easy great escape suicide is.

The ways of the devil are always easy. Always.

Fear of facing life (I call this vitaphobia) is a human thing and the devil will use fear to come between us and God. So what do we do? I share my fears with God and commit my problems to Him. I pray for rest within my heart and strength and courage against these fears. With this courage, I face my fears with resolve. If it means that I have to sacrifice something that I like in this world, I sacrifice it, because my love for God is supposed to be above all else. For we must bravely face what God has called us to do with all the faith we can muster. Fear nothing but the lost of your love for God.

"O my God, the Most High Jesus Christ,
O loving Saviour, God of Eternal Life,
Lord all-pitying, ever kind.
You take away the sins of the world.
Have mercy on us!
The way of this world is tempetuous and forsaken.
Oft times, I stray from you O Lord,
For my faith is build on all things earthly.
Forgive me, Jesus, for I have sinned greatly!
I am truly sorry for betraying Your Word again and again.
But now I have faith,
The faith that only You can give,
The only faith that saves.
Thank you Lord.
On that fateful day
When You died on the cross,
My sins are forgiven.
When You rose from the dead and
Sat by the right hand side of the Father,
You promised Your faithful eternal life.
I thank you for this alone, my God.
I was once blind but now I see.
Hallelujah!
With Your promise, Lord,
Grant me the courage and faith
To go through life in Your Name.
Hear my cry, Jesus,
And I shall not toil in vain!
And with Your strength,
I shall conquer my weaknesses.
I shall walk through the valley of death
And no evil shall I fear.
I love you, Sweet Jesus.
And I know you love me too.
In You I find rest,
In Your Sacred Heart is my home.
I am Yours. Use me.
With my tongue, I proclaim Your Word.
With my hands, I heal the sick.
With my heart, I share Your Love.
Imbue in me Your Strength
So that I shall never lose hope.
Annoint me for the hardship
About to come.
In times of weakness, my Lord,
May I always turn to you and say,
'Let me never lose my faith!'
Amen."

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